My blogging is off to a slow start but not because I haven’t thought about a bunch of things to say.  I have been going through some dramatic changes in my life and maybe the shock, the fear, the wonder, the hope and many other emotions have collided to both make me stop, make me think and make wait.  Ah, waiting.  I’m not great at waiting.  And forgiving myself.  Not good at that either.  And trusting God.  Well, I trust Him with some small things but job hunting is all dependent on me.  Right?

Forgiving self is one of the greatest battles I have.  Typically, I don’t forgive myself and I have junk I have been carrying with me for a long, long time.  A good friend said something to me the other day that really struck a chord.  “Failing to forgive yourself is denying God’s child a gift God wants to give him.”  Wow.  It’s the story of the prodigal and I love the story…right up to the point where I fill in the rest of the story with the returning son living under a cloud of his sins.

Another great comment I heard recently deals with my faith and patience.  “The God who says He has plans for you, that you are His workmanship, is the God you are now doubting because things aren’t the way you want them?”  That hits me right between the eyes.

That’s a start.  I hope this blog evolves into a lot more praise for my glorious Father and less about my doubt, self-doubt and failings.  In the meantime, I’ll deal with some things I need to deal with and see where it leads me.  And where He leads me.

Grace and peace.