I feel like I’m stuck in neutral.  I have a desire to do things for the kingdom yet each day I feel like I am just going through the motions to get through the day.  My prayer life is in neutral.  My reading is in neutral.  My journaling is in neutral.  Oddly, while I feel completely in neutral, I have people from a Bible study I lead at work telling me how meaningful some of the things I mentioned meant to them or helped them in how they see things in their life.  I’m thankful because all I ask is that God will speak through me and it makes me wonder if I feel like I’m in neutral simply because I’m not trying to be in control as has been my custom for many years.  Maybe I am in neutral and allowing God to work but I wouldn’t expect to feel like I’m in neutral if that’s the case.  I’m baffled.

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I am looking forward to the coming weeks of our workplace Bible study.  I will be leading a study through one of my favorite books, Crazy Love.  I expect to lose my feeling of neutral while going back through Chan’s book because it has moved me so deeply in the past.  Or, maybe I’ll feel the same as I ask God to again speak loudly and deliberately through me during that study. 

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Grace and peace to you.
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