Wahoo. It’s Tuesday! I feel like I’m in a blog rut.

I was starting to write about my so-called friends who abuse me on blogs but decided that wasn’t the right thing to do. We all have our faults and they have more than me so why discuss it here, right?

Icy roads tomorrow? Wasn’t it 75 last weekend? This weather is just playing havoc with my wardrobe.

For those of you who think it takes too much time to do a blog, this one is dedicated to you. If you think this takes much time, you have lost your mind.

Kelly’s new puppy is truly eating us out of house and home. First, she gobbled up the window screens and now the faucet covers. I’m contemplating buying new covers and lacing them with tobasco to see how she feels about that. Tobasco used to remind me of pledging (and still does at times) but more often it reminds me of a strange woman I met at Cooks Hospital when Kory was sick once.

OK, so this did take me about 6 hours to complete. It just doesn’t make sense does it?

Wahoo, it’s Friday! There’s a guy coming to the office today that I like on a personal level but who has made some bad choices in his business life with how he treats people. He continually overpromises and seldom delivers yet he never sees it as his mistake and does a good job of laying blame at someone else’s feet. In the last few months, he has been fired by 3 or 4 different companies that he has either been an employee of or represented in business dealings. He tells everyone all he can do, he asks for his money up-front and then never fufills his promise and it’s never his fault. I bet you know someone like that. It’s frustrating because I do like him, he’s a nice guy and he really has a good heart – until he steps into the work arena and then it’s like someone else takes over.
Many people have shut him out but he still calls me because I guess I’m too nice to say no. I’ll continue to treat him as if it’s the nice guy here and hope one day he will change his ways. We’ve talked about it in the past and he still doesn’t see it, doesn’t believe he’s at fault.
I suppose I have my weaknesses too. Yeah, it’s hard to believe isn’t it? HA HA. OK, I don’t need anyone listing them out for me. Back to what I was saying, I have my weaknesses and I sure hope people see in me the good and not the bad. I hope people will treat me kindly even when I may not be the person they want to be around at the moment. I know God treats me that way.
I want to have a heart like God. Oh yes, I’m a long, long, long way from being like God but I still want to try. God, grant me a heart that is open like yours, a heart that is merciful like yours, a heart that is ever loving like yours.

Josh and I went to see the mighty Boyd Yellowjackets take on the Bridgeport Bulls in basketball last night. It was a good game and I was a little surprised to see Boyd come out on top. They’ve got some good shooters but make too many ball-handling mistakes. Still, the season is early and there is time for improvement. Bridgeport came in with taller players who jumped better but they seemed out of sync all night. Their fans were upset and shouted at the refs, the players and the scorekeeper. That’s the funny part, the scorekeeper is Phillip Ritchey and if you know Phillip, he’s a pretty big guy. They yelled at him about the possession arrow, they yelled at him about putting fouls on the scoreboard and they used a 4 letter word at one point during their frustration. Phillip turns around to me at one point and says something to the effect of “these people make it hard to keep your Christianity sometimes.” Now, he said it somewhat jokingly but he was right. I was listening to this ranting and raving and I was wanting to turn around and tell them #$*@(@_)!*#*^%&@()@_)#*&%.

It is hard at times to maintain the good thoughts we need to maintain when we see people around us acting so bad. It’s hard when you hear about someone shooting a police officer to think of them as a child of God. I am faced with situations every day that test what I think and what I do. Too often, I don’t pass the test but I’m thankful God keeps wiping the slate clean and letting me start over. And I’m thankful that even though I fail too many of my tests, they really aren’t hard tests like David or Paul or many other Bible characters endured.

May God grant you and me the ability to stand up to temptations, to defeat the devil’s tricks and to give us victory with Him.

Thanksgiving was good to me. Turkey and dressing and peach cobbler at the Beard’s on Thursday, then fried chicken, black-eyed peas, hot water cornbread and lemon icebox pie at the Jones’ on Friday. Life is good. What was amazing at both places was the amount of food still on the table when we were finished stuffing ourselves (well, I was stuffing myself and not paying much attention to other’s eating habits). I am always surprised when I can eat so much good food that I love and there is still enough of it sitting before me that it would feed twice as many people.

I was driving home last night fighting the wind gusts and the back pain and thinking about all that food and saw a billboard for some church that had an image of Jesus and wording that said something to the effect of finding peace through Jesus. That shifted my focus a little and I started to think how God loves us, how He sheds His mercy on us and realized I had a visual of that idea looking at the table. No matter how much we absorb His love and take His mercy, there is always more, enough to cover us everyday and to cover so many others.

Thanksgiving is a time of food and fellowship but also a time to be thankful to our Father, the giver and provider of more than we can ever hope for.

UPDATE:
I realize now I was a bit abbreviated in my last blog as to what was going on. I’ve been suffering from some increasingly bad back pain and finally decided it wasn’t going away and I should seek some medical attention before I couldn’t stand up. Anyway, I was sent to the Baylor-All Saints Imaging Center today and only had some x-rays done. I wasn’t sure if it would be an MRI or what but it turned out to be fairly benign except for having to wear that stupid gown. At any rate, it will take up to 48 hours for the x-rays to get to the doctor and get a response.

Thanks for the comments and prayers.

I don’t like going to the doctor very much. I don’t like going for X-rays or whatever else it is I have to go get today either. It gives me the feeling something is wrong and I don’t care much to feel that way. The pain makes it obvious but I can live with the pain thinking it will go away and everything will be OK.

Going to church is like that sometimes. I don’t want to go because I’ll see that something is wrong with me. I rather hope that the pain will go away. Our preacher preaches a sermon and I ask “how did he know that about me?” Teachers teach classes and I read scripture thinking “I’m not really like that person am I?”

I suppose all in all, it’s good to get the diagnosis so the problem can be cured. We just have to decide whether to take the therapy recommended by the doctor. If we do, we’ll feel better and be healthier.

I’m guessing my tests today will reveal that I need to get some therapy, maybe do specialized exercises, possbily take some medicine or (yuk) require something more involved. I don’t know but I’ll soon find out. I’m thankful that God’s medicine usually includes a lot of love and a double meaure of grace. It makes me feel good. It tastes good going down and when I let the medicine work, I can feel the curative powers throughout my mind, my body and my soul.

Dennis and Rick, thank you so much for your help around the house. You are invaluable. Once you have mowed, pulled weeds out of the flowerbed, trimmed the trees by the road and washed all the windows, I’ll be sure to give you a public praising. What would we do without you?

It is a beautiful day. The sun is out, the temperature is great (for me, at least) and I’m reflecting on how many good things I have in my life. Thanksgiving is coming and I always ask myself this time of year if I can mentally list all the things I’m thankful for. It’s tough, it really is. I encourage you to try it, to really think about what you are thankful for. Think back into your past to today and think about what you believe the future holds.

I don’t know how long it would take me to write that list down. I could start with things from years past like my purple bike or the great memories I have with David Cheek and bring myself to the present with the relatively good health that I have today and the hope for a cure for diabetes tomorrow, my parents, my family and on and on. You’ve got 6 days to Thanksgiving – start making your mental list today.

I have so much to be thankful for that it is almost funny when I start to think about the “bad” things in my life. I am blessed beyond imagination. I trust that God is giving me all that I need and all that He needs for me to have. Most of all, I’m thankful I have His mercy and the blood of His son to cover me. What more do I need?

My daughter emptied the dishwasher this morning. Without anyone asking her to. And she was smiling. Prepare for an earthquake!

Isn’t it a joy when someone does something unexpected for you? I wish I was better at doing that. It may be a kind word or some small action or just a smile and a pat on the back. It may be a backrub or an empty dishwasher or the dirty clothes picked up off the floor. It may even be time spent with someone in your presence, even in complete silence. What a joy we have from people when they do the littlest of things for us. I came home last night and noticed the bathroom rugs had been washed and the room cleaned. (Kelly, if you are out there, THANK YOU! I forget to tell you far too often.) It made me feel good.

Little things like that are emotional deposits made in our “account” by someone. Eventually, they will need to withdraw on some of those deposits but if they’ve made enough deposits, they will not be overdrawn with us. I think I make far too few deposits and too many withdrawals with people. I do that with God too. I make more withdrawals for His love and mercy than deposits doing what I should. With people, eventually we are bankrupt. With God, He keeps giving us what we need. We are never bankrupt in His eyes.

To those of you who respond to my blog (OK, that’s Rick and Dennis), have you ever tried to make words out of the letters you have to enter in to post? Some of them can be quite funny.

I always listen to ESPN radio in the truck and driving to work today they were talking about Rick’s old friend, Terrell Owens, and how he should be treated. One analogy they made was of someone wanting the best surgeon they could get and didn’t care if he was a murdering, drug dealer who dressed up like a woman in his personal life as long as he was the best surgeon. However, if he spoke bad to his nurses and made the workplace (operating room) a bad environment, they wouldn’t want his operating on them.

They went on to say how the things TO has done is not bad compared to people selling crack, killing people and whatever else. What’s worse?

What is this world coming to? Where is the good news? Where is there something to brighten our day? I’m blessed to have the answer. He is all I need.

Feeling bad isn’t fun. I got a request today to send a friend an email to cheer them up. They are going through some rough times mentally and several people are going to email him and try to help encourage him. He’s one of those guys that many would envy. He’s got a good job and a good family and he’s a really neat person so most people couldn’t imagine he’s down. He’s a Christian and he knows what is most important in his life yet he’s still struggling because of things going on around him. Sound familiar? I know it does for me. There are struggles I face and I just don’t see the situation improving. I pray and feel like I’m waiting on God but I haven’t seen the result I’m hoping for yet. After a while, it is easy to start feeling mentally and physically worn down. I know I have better days ahead of me, I know heaven waits for me yet I only see today.

I’ve found there is only one thing that beats the “blues” for me and that is to pray more and put all my faith in God. I don’t know the timing of how he will help me, I don’t know what he will do. It’s quite possible that the issues I battle will remain issues for me and the obstacles will challenge me to be stronger in my faith. I don’t know what God has planned but I know He has done more than anyone can or will to make my future brighter. I will continue to face things in life that can wear me down, I will continue to let people down, I will continue to let God down but He will remain faithful, He will uphold His promise to me.

People may not see the best in me and people may not see the worst in me. Either way, only God can make me whole. Only God can lift me up to where I truly want to be. Please dear God, help me keep my eyes and thoughts focused on you. Please remind me how much you love me and let me know that through anything I face, you remain true to me.

I hope my friend will find peace. I hope the emails he gets will remind him that people love him even when they aren’t with him. More than that, I hope that he will stay focused on the love God has for him and that love, more than anything, will help him find peace. I hope the same for you.